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when we met, my shift key wasnt working
and i couldnt pronounce my <3s properly.
when we met i was chipped nail polish,
chipped teeth, and chipping acrylic skin.
i had chicken pox scars. i had other itches.
for a reputation, i was the-girl-whose-braids-
have-been-pulled-too-many-times-
she-is-a-whore. when we met, you pulled
my hand. my hair was down,
and you pulled on that too.
when the focus was just right
i was the girl whose genetics were made up
of hereditary hemorrhages and lack of cultivation.
i was the girl who ate cookies too fast
and had too many crumbs stuck to her tonsils.
when i met you, it was kinda like the-air-
sucks-here-but-i-dont-have-enough-money-
to-live-anywhere-else-let-alone-breathe-
somewhere-else-let-alone-be-happy-somewhere-else.
it was kinda like i-should-leave-i-really-should.
we were blood tests and pregnancy tests
and blood samples i didnt really want to give.
we were hyphens and in-betweens. we were
periods that ended nights with "i love you" --
no, we were the sentences that HAD endings.
when i met you, it reminded me of my past. it reminded me
of my first haircut, when i was kicking and screaming and crying
and begging, please no, i dont want change. please
dont change me. the hairdresser just laughed.
meeting you meant complete transformations in my life.
i had broken fingernails, broken bones
in between my teeth, and really, i was
my own paint gallery of broken palettes.
i look at the clipping of hair in my baby book
from my first haircut, and i'm reminded of you.
and i couldnt pronounce my <3s properly.
when we met i was chipped nail polish,
chipped teeth, and chipping acrylic skin.
i had chicken pox scars. i had other itches.
for a reputation, i was the-girl-whose-braids-
have-been-pulled-too-many-times-
she-is-a-whore. when we met, you pulled
my hand. my hair was down,
and you pulled on that too.
when the focus was just right
i was the girl whose genetics were made up
of hereditary hemorrhages and lack of cultivation.
i was the girl who ate cookies too fast
and had too many crumbs stuck to her tonsils.
when i met you, it was kinda like the-air-
sucks-here-but-i-dont-have-enough-money-
to-live-anywhere-else-let-alone-breathe-
somewhere-else-let-alone-be-happy-somewhere-else.
it was kinda like i-should-leave-i-really-should.
we were blood tests and pregnancy tests
and blood samples i didnt really want to give.
we were hyphens and in-betweens. we were
periods that ended nights with "i love you" --
no, we were the sentences that HAD endings.
when i met you, it reminded me of my past. it reminded me
of my first haircut, when i was kicking and screaming and crying
and begging, please no, i dont want change. please
dont change me. the hairdresser just laughed.
meeting you meant complete transformations in my life.
i had broken fingernails, broken bones
in between my teeth, and really, i was
my own paint gallery of broken palettes.
i look at the clipping of hair in my baby book
from my first haircut, and i'm reminded of you.
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like you're still around.
pretty new starts
in pretty new places;
followed by ugly hearts
with ugly faces.
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Fuck You, Cancer
Kay didn't want it.
No, no, no, no, no.
"No."
She screwed the shiny leaflet up into a tight ball, not caring that the sharp edges dug into her palms, and threw it into the open fireplace, smugly watching the flames eat up her information. It was permanently ingrained now anyway.
She didn't want alopecia. To have to wrap her bald head in scarves and wigs that itched. She didn't want to vomit her stomach up every time she tried to keep some form of nourishment in it. She didn't want her red blood cells to die away so all she had energy for was to lie down and sob. She didn't want her skin to be so sore and fragile her legs would bleed freel
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Suspira - a first
The dandelions cried today.
Because after the dusktime,
Where lonely shadows
Take out their fraying edges,
Morning really has broken.
Words un-spoken, songs un-sung;
And morning, this time,
Doesn't quite cut it.
The blackbird's gone missing.
Sometimes I wonder
If it was ever really there.
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I feel like I'm on Wikipedia. Everytime I finish one of your pieces, I look over to the right side and there's this little pane with three little windows. And on the other side of each of those windows in another fragment of you, of tumbling words and hyphen-addictions. And I just can't. stop. clicking.
There is something about your hands, your fingers. They simply bleed amazingness into the keyboard, onto the paper, and I feel honoured to be here reading, experiencing, what you have lain before us.
Thank you.
There is something about your hands, your fingers. They simply bleed amazingness into the keyboard, onto the paper, and I feel honoured to be here reading, experiencing, what you have lain before us.
Thank you.